Face it. Some days kinda suck. It’s the reality of life. I think without some sucky days that we would not appreciate the good days as much. I think I’m really going to appreciate tomorrow because today? Not so much.
I’m not sure how to handle sucky, nausea days like today when healing pains have me wincing. The ancient book I read, the ones the Jews built their society on and the disciples had 90% intact by the close of Paul’s ministry tells me to be thankful, rejoice and even be positive in days like this. I do my best but, um, really. I just can’t run around pasting a smile and saying, “Yahoo! I wish I could puke and feel better!.” Or, when my abdominal muscles cramp up, which docs told me would happen during the healing process after transplant, “Oh baby! That’s a good one! I hope I have a few more of these coming!”
Common sense tells me that would be stupid. We’d call it denial. But we’ve all met people on both ends of the spectrum. There’s the loon who smiles and says, “Praise the Lord!” while a honey badger gnaws off their leg. And then there’s the moaner who literally always has a crisis and is quick to share their misery with you.
I think my bible is telling me more about the state of mind I can aim for. God’s in control, life is life, rain falls on both good and bad people and I can trust Him.
So here I am feeling like my insides want to be on the outside and I’m able to dig deep and be thankful, find joy and try to stay positive because I have a perspective that goes far beyond today. Yeah, today is tough. Or, right now is tough but tonight or tomorrow might be better. I can hang on for the better times. I will.
Some people get all philosophical as soon as they hit pain. They question God’s existence and doubt He is loving. “If God loved me, he wouldn’t let me be in pain like this.” Did God create pain? What purpose does it serve?
If not for pain, I’d be one of the most stupid people on the planet. Pain often times tells me the boundary. It tells me when to rest, when to back away from the fire and limits. But the pain of liver disease, or cancer, or MS, or Lou Gehrig’s Disease tell me nothing about boundaries. It’s pain that we can do nothing about. It’s that type of pain that can make me doubt God’s love. Other pain comes with an explanation – a fall, a sunburn, a crash but disease? It just hits regardless of position, money or stature. From Steve Jobs to little old me … disease works to end life.
So where is God? Why does disease hit you, a good, decent tax-paying person? Why doesn’t God just direct disease to evil dictators and murderers? Why does disease take the lives of babies and moms, dad’s and people who are “good?”
I believe God hates disease. I don’t believe he created disease to punish humans. The way I figure it, God set this system up to run. He put us into a perfect situation hanging with Him and we decided we wanted to go our own way so we ditched Him and he let us walk away. We walked from paradise to pain. When we said, “Um, God, we really don’t trust you so back off.”
I think God, though sad about it, gave us what we wanted and what He promised. He simply said “okay.” At that point, pain, disease and turmoil became a standard to all life. Every life has pain.
When I’m hitting pain and am tempted to blame God, I remember that humankind, according to my old book, chose this path by turning on God. And then I am amazed that even though we humans still don’t trust Him, he walks through pain with us. He doesn’t have to be there with us. He could easily say, “Hey, tough luck pal but this is what you wanted. Don’t whine to me about it.” But, He doesn’t. His Grace compels Him to hold me, love me and stay beside me no matter what. So, rather than get ticked at God about my disease or my pain, I am thankful He forgives me and comforts me and stays with me.
For me, today has really sucked. I have felt nauseous all day. Tomorrow might be better or, it might not be. But, I am totally confident that no matter what tomorrow brings, I’ll be able to rely on my Faith and my Jesus to face it.
How do you see pain and disease as it relates to God and faith?
1 Peter 1:5-8 God is keeping careful watch over us and the future. The Day is coming when you’ll have it all – life healed and whole. I know how great this makes you feel, even though you have to put up with every kind of aggravation in the meantime. 7 Pure gold put in the fire comes out of it proved pure; genuine faith put through this suffering comes out proved genuine. When Jesus wraps this all up, it’s your faith, not your gold, that God will have on display as evidence of his victory. You never saw him, yet you love him. You still don’t see him, yet you trust him – with laughter and singing.