Category Archives: love

Why do I get to live while others die?

I’ve had a few experiences in the last week that I don’t really know how to process. I’m feeling kind of down. Okay, I’ll spill it. I met a few organ donor families who are filled with grief. I feel … Continue reading

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When death ruins your day…

When do you feel most inadequate? I mean, what situations leave you stumbling for words or standing silently with absolutely no idea what to do? For me, it happens during one of life’s largest privileges. During the painful privilege of a … Continue reading

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What did you do with your summer vacation? (Hospital again)

I remember the annual essay that came each year in September. I remember stories of neighborhood baseball when we’d play until we lost the ball. I remember the time my dad surprised me with a box of brand new, bright … Continue reading

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Who is Bilirubin and why is he messing with me?

I now have an envelope stuffed with my liver disease records from all the way back to 2005 when it was discovered. It’s a lot of paper. Most of it makes no sense to me. But other parts of it … Continue reading

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Quiet streams? Well … not today…

This is my oldest son, Josh. He recorded this song for me after I posted Jon Foreman’s “House of God Forever” this morning. (You can hear Jon Foreman’s version at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uoXWIK1lfyo ) Of course, Josh’s version, lyrics at bottom of … Continue reading

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Yeah, so are you …

Last night I crawled into bed at 10. My son Josh texted to ask how I was feeling. I told him I was exhausted and felt every muscle in my body. But, I’m totally thankful for such a great day. … Continue reading

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It’s been a good day!

I woke up this morning with no noticeable pain. Through the night I woke at 1:30, 2:30 and 4:30. Toddlers fight to stay awake. We who are older fight to stay asleep. I’d love to sleep right through the night … Continue reading

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Today was my best day in a week. Woohoo!

After a pretty good night’s sleep with only 2 leg-cramping episodes, I awoke with a strange sensation in my belly … I WAS HUNGRY!!! Now that might not sound like a big deal to you but it was for me. … Continue reading

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Dr. Visit, blood test, um …

Goodbye May 11 … Hope to see you again next year. It looks like regular blood tests are my thing. I am such a baby. Something about the words “you’re gonna feel a little stick” makes me cringe. Who ever … Continue reading

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Broken. Humbled. Loved.

What a day. I have been getting loved on by people all over the planet. Emails, Facebook, blog comments. I have barely been able to keep up. People have asked how to pray, how to contribute and texted words of … Continue reading

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Wisdom in an 86 year old package

My friend is 86. We’re somewhat of an odd pair. I’m not even sure when our friendship began. I know it was several years ago and I think I was listening to him in the hallway of a big building … Continue reading

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This hit me. You?

Reposted from lazaroo blog “Solomon gave orders to build a temple for the Name of the LORD and a royal palace for himself.” (2 Chronicles 2:1) That’s pretty much the way it goes, isn’t it, Jesus? Even while we’re building … Continue reading

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17,000 People read my blog? Um, so what?

In September about 17,000 people read my blog. Maybe there is something to this blogging thing after all? Mostly I just write it as a way to get stuff outta my mind or off my chest like a journal. It … Continue reading

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Messy beds and hurting people

People hurt people. Most hurting people don’t end the cycle, they hurt others. My heart is hurting today. It’s hurting for friends who are on the receiving end of mean words and actions at the hands of people they love. … Continue reading

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Middle Walkers Cause Me Stress

I like to ride my hybrid bike around the bay and then on the coast. Portland is perfect for it. There are sailboats, lobster boats, ships and awesome trails for walkers, runners and bikers. Yesterday I even saw a bridal … Continue reading

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