Category Archives: hope

Christmas isn’t what we think it is.

“With” is a powerful word. It is an important word. The word “with” is a preposition because it exists to indicate associations, togetherness, and connections between things and people. Yawn. What is this, a grammar lesson? Hang tight, read on. Stay … Continue reading

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Do you pray? How do you pray? When? Why?

When I was at my lowest, my prayers seemed intimate and somehow powerful. They seemed like a two-way interaction, I often sensed God’s presence and comfort like a sudden, warm, summer downpour – the type that makes you throw out … Continue reading

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How do you handle gut-wrenching, suffocating, consuming weight?

My transplant experience gave me a gift that, today, I would like to return. Usually, I’m thankful for it, but recently it has grown so heavy that I feel like it is breaking me. I’ve been watching My 600 Pound … Continue reading

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Megan makes people better. She was my PUSH to Trek in 2015.

In my last post I told you that I registered for the three-day, 180 mile, 2015 Trek Across Maine because of a girl named Megan. I promised to tell you about her in my next blog entry. Here goes. I … Continue reading

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50 Miles: Hidden tears behind sunglasses

I’m going to be gross for a minute. Skip to the next paragraph now if gross medical stuff makes you want to toss your cookies. Twenty-eight months ago I was lying in a hospital bed at Lahey Hospital with a … Continue reading

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I’ve got the green light … Now what?

A week ago Josh and I walked through the doors at Lahey Hospital and headed to the transplant wing. When we walk around Lahey we do it like we built the place. We know where everything is because we’ve spent … Continue reading

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Where do you find peace? Where do you soak it in?

Think of a favorite place; a place where you feel peace saturate your soul. Do you have such a place? I have friends who will think of the vast view at the top of a mountain trail while others will … Continue reading

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Life is full of ironies. This one gives me chills.

Well, ain’t that ironic? Some ironies make me tilt my head. Why do we park on driveways and drive on parkways? Why do they call them apartments when they are so close together? Shouldn’t they be closements? Iceland is green and … Continue reading

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Do you remember last Christmas? I don’t.

I’m thoroughly enjoying this Christmas season. I mean, apart from all the normal bickering about “the reason for the season,” I’m enjoying looking at Christmas lights, hearing Christmas carols and opening cards brought each day by the postman. (Aside: I … Continue reading

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I used to be thankful … but now?

Today’s the day. It’s the day when everyone in the U.S. pauses and thinks about being thankful. Thankful Facebook statuses roll up my screen one after another. Thankful for family, friends, spouse, pets, house, new job, provision, troops, Jesus, new … Continue reading

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You can’t spell “community” without u and i

This liver transplant journey has been the most difficult period of my life but I see lots of good that has come out of it. For instance, I now am part of a pretty tight community. We all speak the … Continue reading

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Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away

Saturday day was awesome. For the first time since I can remember I felt 98% normal. I felt like I was not one of the .000017% percent of Americans receiving a liver transplant this year. I felt like Pinochio after … Continue reading

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When I look at the stars I see …

When was the last time you looked at the stars? I’m not talking about a quick glance. I’m talking about putting everything on pause, silencing the noise and looking. When was that? Thursday night, August 2, I sit on a … Continue reading

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Cribbage, wheezes, new hat and, oh yeah, A TRANSPLANT DATE!

Picture this, on one side of an antique trunk sits an 80 year old Korean War vet who is a whiz with numbers. On the other side sits someone whom you are sure is a pregnant man with his giant … Continue reading

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Holding pattern and Christmas blessings

I remember once, years back, when I was in the air above Chicago’s O’hare airport circling and waiting to land. Back then there was no wifi, no tv’s and laptops were few and far between. I was listening to the … Continue reading

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