100.7 temp last night. 100.2 tonight and climbing. Terrible nausea and stomach pain.
We took a trip to Burlington today because the doctor wanted to see me. He pulled out the final drain and wants me to watch for higher temps. Infection is not a good thing.
I take eight Prograf tablets a day. That might be the cause of my nausea. I have a blood test tomorrow morning to see if I’m in the toxic level. Common side effects are nausea, stomach pain, headache … all things that I have.
My liver numbers have increased some and that’s not a good thing. They think it might be related to this issue that I’m having right now.
I’ll be honest, I’m kind of scared. I’m also pretty discouraged. I know this recovery isn’t going to be easy. But when you’re in the midst of it you get tired.
Today I’m very tired. And I’m praying that God would take away my pain and nausea so I can start feeling better. So far it feels like my prayers are just bouncing around. Do you ever feel like that?
I know my Jesus is holding me but frankly just I’m just not feeling it right now.
Robin feels so helpless, she wants to help me feel better. But this seems to be something that I have to suffer on my own.
I’m sure there’s a reason for it. I mean, I believe my God does things or allows things for reason. I’ll grow through this. I have no doubt.
But, right now I just want it to stop. The pain is almost at the level of pre transplant when I was lying on the bathroom floor. I don’t like that at all.
I almost laughed out loud today at the doctor’s. My doc told me to stop taking pain medication. Is he nuts or what? I’ve cut it down to maybe once a day. I still need it.
Surgeons can be funny. I love Dr. Pompaselli. His sense of humor is dry and I like to kid with him. Today he said, “why you feeling nauseous?”
Without missing a beat I said, “I don’t know let me ask my doctor. Hey doc why am I feeling nauseous?” He laughed.
So, here I am again God. Suffering. Pain. Nausea. Wondering where you are? I’d love to feel you by my side, I would love it if you would take the pain away.
If not, help me to learn what you would have me learn quickly so that I might glorify you.