Lord, why do you have me here again?
I just spent 5 days here.
Sodium level dangerous again.
You could step in and change it immediately.
But you don’t. You just won’t.
“Scott, you need to pray in faith. Renounce, rebuke.”
Get off my back. Making my healing my responsibility – not helping.
Don’t tell me my faith is deficient. Bug someone else.
I know you mean well…

Sodium levels. 116 at admission.
How many days will I be here?
You know. I don’t.

Will they move my transplant date up?
I don’t know. God, you do.
I trust your timing. I trust you.

Teach me. Shape me. Use me to glorify your name.
No matter what happens.
Help me point others to you.

I trust you Lord.
I thank you for all you’ve taught me.
In my suffering.