Thursday I have a doctor appointment. Big deal. Ho hum. What else is new?

This one’s a first for me. You know how you have to call the doctor’s office, talk about your issues and pain and get, “I have an opening six weeks from Tuesday?” I always want to say, “Okay, I’ll try to stay alive that long.”

This time my liver doctor called me. What???? He said he reviewed my tests and results from my hospital stay and wants to meet with me as soon as possible. Um, okay? That’s a first for me.

I’m pretty sure he isn’t having me come in to say, “Things are awesome and I just want to give you a happy hug.”

So, I’m freaking out a little. I’m praying for peace and getting nothing. I’m stressed. I have faith that God is God. I know He’s close but I’m not feeling closeness. Does that make sense?

But then, I also know He’s patient and will wait until I come to that realization that He has never left my side. He’s not interested in me pretending. He knows me better than I know myself.

I will try to sleep now. I’m not thinking I’ll be successful in that with my mind racing from scenario to scenario.

Here goes ….