I’m antsy. Do you know the feeling? It’s a mix of expectation, anxiety, excitement and fear. It’s like driving behind someone who has had their directional on for awhile. Do they know it’s on? Are they going to turn? Is anything going to happen? When?
I feel like the Lord has been getting me ready for something. My heart is shifting, the things I enjoy are changing and something is building up in me that could be called “vision.” It’s been happening in Robin simultaneously.
Have you ever had something to say but you just can’t seem to get it out in the midst of all the other noise? For example, you’re at a meeting and the ideas are flying but you just don’t get a chance to add what you’re thinking. Take that up a few notches. Picture yourself as an assistant coach dutifully performing your role game after game. You’ve been doing it for years. The coach is great but you just have this sense that you’re ready to take a team of your own. It’s a good change. It doesn’t come out of anything negative. It comes from preparation and vision.
That’s how I feel. Ready.
Ready for what? I have no idea! Maybe 2010 will be when we sell everything and head for the mission field. Maybe God will lead us to a group of hurting people who are facing their church closing and use us to reignite vision for their community. Maybe we’ll buy a farmhouse and minister to unwed moms and use the barn for worship space. College ministry? Campus pastor? Planter? Whatever it is, we’re excited about it.
I’m antsy. I’m about to burst with a desire to share what I have been learning in Scripture. I don’t want to preach at people as much as I want to invite them to explore Jesus with me. I am anxious to build a team and lead others into discovering how to follow Christ. I’m ready, willing and waiting for direction.
Things change in life. My perception is that the teens I work with would go further with someone younger. They need the community-building energy of lock-ins and retreats. They are ready to be challenged by whoever it is that the Lord has been preparing to begin a ministry with them. How many teenagers want to hang out with someone who is older than their dads? I love them enough to see that I am probably limiting them. They deserve more than a maintenance mindset.
Will 2010 will be when the Lord moves us? Maybe He has more prep work to do in our hearts before He sends us. Will you pray that we learn what we must and that He sends us with clarity? Be excited with us.
And I double-dog-dare you to pray, “Lord, here I am, use me however and wherever you wish.” He is showing me that amazing adventures lie ahead if we will just drop our nets and follow Him.
Is. 6:8 Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I. Send me!”